Finding Beauty

Life with illness is difficult. It’s HARD. I’m gonna be honest, most days it feels like all of the beauty and happiness has been sucked up by ugliness. Now, I’m not talking physical ugliness. Y’all are gorgeous souls and don’t let anyone tell you otherwise. I’m talking illness ugly (it’s a thing, trust me).

Blood is illness ugly. It’s not happy or good and fills the mind with worry and concern. Pain is illness ugly. Tearing down instead of building up; destroying good intentions and dreams. Fatigue is illness ugly. Where’s the beauty in being bed-bound?

And that’s just the start. Hospitals, doctors, surgeries…. All of these unpleasant and down right terrible things try so hard to stamp out joy and goodness. But there is still so much good in the world. If you can, step outside and breathe in some fresh air. Feel the sun warming your hair and look at the sky, gorgeous and encompassing in its vastness. Or Google pictures of Rococo art and marvel in the bright colors. Good is all around us. It’s so very hard to see it and enjoy it when ill, I know this, I truly do. But that’s where the beauty comes in.

You see, beauty is rising above. It’s succeeding when all of the odds are against you. It’s grabbing the good in the world and holding onto with all of your super-human strength. Enjoying a museum or zoo trip is beautiful. You are the beauty. So in the words of Samwise The Brave, “There’s some good in this world, Mr. Frodo… and it’s worth fighting for.”

P.S. Waterfalls make me happy so enjoy

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